Getting in Tune

If you've been keeping up with my Instagram page, you'll likely see the various posts of me playing guitar. (Trying). Sometimes I go live if I'm brave enough.

One of my goals as a teenager was to someday learn guitar and I'm glad it's finally happening.

My life also needs a major tune-up. From the outside, it looks like I'm doing well and maybe I am. It sure doesn't feel like it at times. While I've experienced so much growth, it feels like I'm going backwards or losing things. Which is probably dramatic, but still lol.

Sometimes, losing what you thought you needed can be a blessing. It's just a testament to how your life is changing and a test to see how you will adapt, how you will deal with it. I'm just grateful to still be alive and striving to please God. I'm grateful for the opportunities thus far and I hope they pay off soon.

I know what I have to do, it's just a matter of executing it. It takes time and hard work, but I'll get there.

Honestly at times it feels like I'm on the outside looking at my life. And sometimes it's a little hard to bare seeing what I go through.

But I love me. And that's why I push myself harder.

It nice leaning on God but at the same time it feels like he's not answering me quick enough so there's a lot of pressure lol

But, these various situations have allowed me to lean on God more, which is good. If he wasn't in my life, I probably would be in a worse condition now. Having faith keeps you strong and knowing how to communicate with God is a blessing in itself.

So, here's a poem I wrote to express what I've been feeling lately:

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Growing slowly. Changing slowly. Every now and then I remember to stop and just breathe. Sometimes life can get crazy and so I stop and stand still. I remember to listen and to take notice of the things around me. At first I feel nothing. Emptiness. And then I feel everything. Not all at once, but gradually. The light within me shines, heals me. And then I burst with life. Remember what is important. And realize that that’s all that matters.

What are some ways you de-stress or "get in tune"? Write me back. I'd love to know.